I’ve thought about when I wanted to time this post, and whether this is coming too soon, or whether it would be professional to do so or not. Well, weddings are personal. Love is extremely personal. I display many people’s personal stories on here. I’m the kind of person who believes in living life to the fullest, in being honest, because I only have one life to live. So I’m going to be personal with you.
I’m dealing with the aftermath of a painful breakup – my first breakup – right now. Some days I feel strong enough to be normal and functioning and laughing. Other days, I feel like my mind can’t take on any more stress. I will leave it at this and simply say that I think we made the right decision for both of us, but it doesn’t make it any easier, and that I really hope he’s doing okay too and I hope he’s happy.
The day after, I had to photograph my first wedding of the year. It was not easy. When I woke up I was crying and mad that it was a beautiful day and that I wasn’t on the path towards marriage and just bewildered and wondering how I was going to get through it all. However, the moment I arrived and started working I knew why I loved this job so much, and I was able to pull myself together (with the love and help of Emily), and perform what was expected of me, and gosh the wedding was SO beautiful, intimate, and true.
I LOVE being a wedding photographer because it brings me so much joy, hope, and happiness. I’m extremely honored to have been chosen to be the wedding photographer of all my clients, I know you guys have a huge talent pool to select from and many amazing people you could have worked with. I’m so hopeful to witness the beautiful union of two people. A wedding is not easy to get to, and the marriage afterwards isn’t any easier! Most of my clients probably have gone through various degrees of heartbreak and sadness and broken relationships in their past to get to this point. And yet, here they are, ready to become one, ready to no longer live their lives for themselves, but for each other! And I have so many clients who have gotten this far and will continue to go on! So I’m not alone! I’m honored to be the wedding photographer because I get to tell their story in my pictures. I get to record these happy memories. I get to observe them at a beautiful moment and I get to be a part, a witness, a collaborator. I do not take this lightly. Being a wedding photographer is not a job. It is a blessing.
So, I’m happy to continue to be photographing weddings. I’m happy to continue talking weddings and give advice to my friends. It’s the least I can do for people who have made it to this amazing (but also scary) point in their lives.
As for me, I know there is hope too. I know that God has something planned. I do believe that life works out in wondrous and mysterious ways beyond the simple imagination of mind as small as my own. I’m learning to love the beauty in uncertainty, and I’m spending my time reveling in serving and making others happy because it gives me a sense of purpose and an ability to be grateful for all that I have.
For now, sneak peek of Nicole and Lino’s wedding in the Boston Public Gardens!
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